The Reality of Autism and Lack of Danger Awareness

This morning Sonny was knocked off his scooter by a car reversing off of it’s drive. The lady in the car appeared to be in a rush. Although she may have saw me walking towards her with the pushchair and Riley next to me, she failed to notice Sonny on his scooter only ever so slightly ahead of me. She obviously thought she could reverse out on to the road with plenty of time and space between us.

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Sonny’s First School Trip

Sonny.
Today you are going on your first ever school trip. You’re off to visit a farm with your 1:1 for the day Mrs H and all your friends at school. You’ve been excited about it for weeks now, asking me every morning if it’s Wednesday yet… if it’s ‘the Wednesday yet. You’ve been reciting the days of the weeks using your fingers in an attempt to work out just how many more days you have left to wait.
The time has finally come, it’s here and you’re off on a coach with the whole of Reception. Are you feeling nervous?

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Knebworth House | An Autism Friendly Dinosaur Adventure

Sonny has three main interests; cars, trains and dinosaurs. He seems to rotate these every few weeks or so but for the moment it’s dinosaurs.

His interests aren’t just general likes, they become obsessional. Sonny lives it and breathes it. He stomps through the house like a dinosaur making impressive prehistoric noises and always carries at least two figures, one in each hand, wherever he goes. He loves nothing more than to watch dinosaur videos on the iPad and look through his dinosaur encyclopaedias (yes more than one.) He memorises them by name and recites every fact about them. He is the go-to boy for dino knowledge.

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Behind The Smiles of Our Autism Family

I’m not a lover of small talk, the ‘are you okay’s’ and the ‘how’ve you been-s.’ It’s kind and polite but I’d much rather a more deep and meaningful conversation. When I first noticed her it started off with half a smile upon our passing. Then it became a quiet ‘hi’ and a smile which soon progressed to a smile and a ‘hello.’ A lady passes us most mornings on route to school, happy, smiling and completely free of judgement at the sight of me, sometimes stressed and often in a hurry, a young girl with three young boys in toe. A few weeks passed quite standardly, weeks of smiles, hello’s and blasé comments about the weather, be it pouring with rain or warm beaming sunshine there was always something to say. I wasn’t a lover of small talk until one day this lady said something to me that took me by surprise.

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Zippy Spinners | Fidget Toys For Autism and Anxiety

From the beginning, Sonny has always been a sensory seeker. As a baby he was a super cuddly-koala clinging-touchy feeling- octopus. As he grew older, he lessened his grip on me and began to enjoy playing with toys of his narrowed interests. Anything trains or Disney’s Cars and Planes, you were sure to get his attention. It didn’t take long for us to notice his constant need for toys in each hand, regardless of what we were doing or where we were going. He never had a dummy or took to a particular teddy for comfort, so I guess his toys were his comforter after all.

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It’s Not The Day For A School Play

Reception performed their school play this morning to their parents and the rest of the school. Except this time, Sonny wasn’t going to be there. We went to school this morning and walked past the long queue of parents, eagerly waiting to get inside and for the play to begin. Me… I walked home feeling just a little disheartened.

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Cold Coffee & A High Five | A Guide To Surviving School Mornings

To the mum that high fived me for getting through another morning school run, I salute you! I see you fellow mamma, looking occasionally rushed and flustered on route to the classroom door. We get one other. We don’t pretend this whole mothering thing is easy. It’s certainly not.

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Autism and The Chicken Pops Diary

Chicken pox. One of childhoods most common illnesses. His two brothers have had it and I had wondered how it would differ for Sonny when he caught it. Would it? How would it? Would it be harder for him, having Autism? His little brother Zachary was poorly with chicken pox two weeks before and I assumed him now knowing what Chicken Pox looked like, may help to prepare him. (Who was I kidding!)

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Meltdown | How Does It Really Feel?

Have you ever felt so angry, so on the edge of control, so at the brink of sanity and rational thought, that it’s scared you? Have you ever been pushed so far, that when despite begging out loud for it to stop, it doesn’t and you explode? Have you ever lost it? Do you remember what that felt like? Red hot blood coursing through your veins that leaves you shaking in despair. The urge to destroy anything and everything that crosses your path. Did you shout and scream? Did you fall down and cry? Did you hide away and not want to come out? Did you throw things and break things and say things you didn’t mean?

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